Emotionally we get played with so much. The worst part is after that occurs we find ourselves evaluating our own worth. Several times within my dating life I have stayed with or allowed someone back into my life whom I thought was the one. Time and time again I got hurt, walked away and then wound up back in the same situation. Sad thing is in my mind they were the one for me, however I wasn’t for them, so they figured out that when they had a need or lonely moment I would always be there. Took me a while to realize that it wasn’t me they needed, what they needed was their own sick satisfaction of knowing that I would build them up and make them feel good about themselves, and then they feel confident again and go on to something else. Thereby breaking my foolish heart again. Psychologically this put me in an extremely depressed state. Still today I allow others within my inner circle still play these type mind games. Recently one of my supposed friends needed a favor without thinking I step up and help, time passes and I am in a low spot and just needed company surprisingly they were not there or had no time for me. Now already being in a depressed emotional this caused me to fall deeper. Not only did the love of my life not respect and love me it seemed as if my inner circle of friends I trust didn’t either. Partially I take responsibility only because up until starting to write this blog I did not do well at sharing my emotions nor was I proficient at asking for help.
Worth, believe it or not is one of the most subconscious emotions we have. Everyone wants to feel wanted and needed. It matters not if it is your relationships or your profession we have a need to be needed. Most of the time we interpret things inaccurately. We did not get the reaction we were looking for so we automatically think the worse. It causes us to evaluate everything within our lives and causes us to judge ourselves and usually not in a good way.
So why do we keep going back to those that mistreat us and use us. Probably because we truly are a good hearted person and see worth and potential within someone that has not yet figured out their own value or worth. Friends have called me out all the time on my ability to help people through the worst times within their lives but yet cannot seem to find happiness within my own life. Well they were right I allowed others to play my emotions to the point to where I focused on the worth and happiness for others and forgot that my own worth and happiness were more important then I gave it credit for.
This is how I started to fix it for me. I found my lost values…. That is right I allowed other to change my beliefs and values. I took on this project to evaluate the things that make me sad or unhappy and looked for ways to solve them if possible and surely prevent them from occurring again. I started to be positive again not allowing myself to get sucked into negative drama. I started to go out again and do things I love. One of which was simply singing again and if you followed me on snapchat you would see I sing at work all the time. I have reached out and talked with friends again. I stopped sitting around and allowing those negative thoughts control me. I still go out of my way to assist others. Now I simply provide advice and help where I could. If they choose to listen great if not well I did my best. In addition, I will not allow them to continue to dwell on it. If I provide guidance a few times and they do not change or accept the word, well then I just move on I will no longer discuss those topics with them. Also, I now have found a couple of folks that I can talk to who also know my values and they help to keep me on track. If something upsets me I will now discuss it sooner rather than later so that it does not affect me for days, weeks, months or even years. I tell people when they upset me. I also support people and congratulate them on their success. Most importantly I show care and compassion within all I do.
YOU ARE AWESOME AND A WONDERFUL PERSON ALLOW NOONE TO TAKE THIS FROM YOU. THE WORLD IS A TOUGH SCARY PLACE PUT ON YOUR BIG GIRL OR BOY PANTIES AND TAKE CHARGE OF YOUR LIFE. TIMES WILL CAUSE YOU TO OCASIONALLY BRING OUT YOUR CRYING TOWEL AND OTHER TIMES YOU WILL HAVE TO LACE UP YOUR BOOTS OF ASS KICKERY.
POINT IS DEAL WITH IT MOVE ON BE POSITIVE AND HAPPY.
BECAUSE YOU ARE SEXY WONDERFUL AND BEAUTIFUL BOTH EXTERNALLY AND INTERNALY. YOU MY FRIEND ARE SO…..
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